Joey, this is Daddy , Happy Easter, This is very hard everyday I think of you, everyday I wish I could've changed that day that I last seen you. I will always blame myself for what happened to you. No matter what life throws at me it will never compete with living life without you in it. I would lay down and die right now to bring you back to life. I protected you from everything that I could and I just couldn't get you to understand. I am not sure what to do with myself now, you were my life I dream about you and I don't want to wake up and I miss you so bad that it is killing me inside. I guess it could been anyone else but it wasn't son. It was you my only son my baby boy I watched grow up wiped the tears from your eyes when then first girl broke your heart, from changing diapers to school to adulthood. I watched you turn into a great man. We had a lot of issues you and I but I can really honestly say there wasn't anything we wouldn't do for each other. It has been five long hard ( the hardest) months. I've ever been through in my life. I miss you so much That I can't sleep I can't eat and I want to be with you. I will be there one day I'm sorry Joey God I am sorry. I don't have you in my life anymore. I know that you are watching over me and that's the only reason I think that I haven't just gave up and ended it all myself. I hope that you know that I will always love you. There just is not enough words to express watch you meant to me or how I feel without you. I love you.
Daddy's loves you.